Tuesday, May 23, 2017

Fighting the Anxious Battle

Friends, I had a plan to make this post short and sweet but while I closed my eyes for a few minutes yesterday from the exhaustion of fighting my head, thoughts, and anxious heart I decided I would share my struggle. The reality is, I want this blog to be a place where you feel like you have a virtual best friend, to talk about the good things, exchange outfit ideas, makeup, beauty, life tips, share happy moments but also share in struggle. Even though being open and vulnerable when I'm struggling isn't my favorite it needs to be done. 

My anxiety comes in waves.. if you can believe this, it's the worst right before my hormones go a little crazy once a month (if you know what I mean, I apologize if that's too much detail for anyone but I'm just being real 🙈) I feel like I am reverting back to my old self. The anxious Abi when I started college who could barely make it through a day without breaking into tears and feeling so on edge I didn't know how to handle myself. I questioned everything in my life and I know the enemy was using that to try and throw me off course. The course the Lord had/has for me. 

It's been a rough few days. I've felt depressed, sad, anxious, questioning my life and choices and I hardly ever do that anymore so whenever a stumbling block comes I feel like I'm going back to my old ways, when in reality I've made so much progress. I will have rough days, struggling wont just disappear as I get older but I can rest in the fact that God is still good even when I feel alone and sad and far from everything. I need to not act on what I'm feeling but speak truth over myself. 

I share my heart with you because I want you to know I'm not perfect and I don't have my life together. I'm just running this race as best as I can and making the most of the life I've been given. We ALL have rough days and all have seasons where we struggle and question our life and the choices we have made but that's part of the journey. 

It's about blooming into who we are supposed to be which is why I modeled my shirts with the saying "Bloom with Grace." We are blooming into who we are supposed to be constantly and we all need to strive to do it with grace as well as extend grace to ourselves and not be so hard on our hearts. I am a culprit of this myself. I beat myself up over a bad day but lets be honest, we all have them.

If you get anything out of this post know that you are loved, treasured and adored and your life and journey is so important in this world! You are alone no matter what you are struggling with. Life can be hard but it can also be so sweet! Relish in the good and become better from the bad and hard. I promise you'll be more beautiful because of it.

If you're interested in purchasing a shirt you can do so here

Thanks for reading and listening to me share my heart! 

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; 
in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight."

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

"My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts," says the LORD. "And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine.

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